It has almost been a month since I last opened my blog.
Confusion.
Self-Discovery.
Soul-Searching.
And.
Desicion-making.
I have to make up my mind what way to follow and where to go to. I looked for myself and searched for that missing part of me.
I wanted to travel and explore the world at the same time trying to discover what is it that I really wanted to do. I want to know what is it that will make me happy. The kind of happiness that I have never felt before.
I went to Singapore and after a month of silence, I finally made up my mind...
I went to different places, tourist spots and heritage sites. Places that will surely make people happy, places that will give joy to one's heart but when I was there, I was totally unhappy. There is something still missing. Something I need to achieve. Something more.
A friend of mine invited me and my bff/room mate to go to a creation church. That time, my mind was full of confusion, reluctance, fear and self-pity. The pastor made us understand what God really has for us. He made me realize that I have no power over the events that might happen in my life yet I have the choice to choose if I will take it in a positive way or not. You don't have a choice what's next or what's up for tomorrow so why worry on that something where in you know you don't have the power to change Yet You have the choice on how You will take it. This made me realize, I was unhappy because I never gave myself the chance to be happy. I was so scared to fail yet I am already a failure. I want to walk with pride yet I don't know my capabilities and so I stopped and humbled myself down again.
